Theoretically

This concept has been in my head since the whole Omeeka thing happened and I wasn't going to write it but I couldn't help it. 

Early 2010

"I got your text, is everything okay?" Drake asked as he walked into her house receiving a kiss on the cheek on the way.

"Yeah, I just need to tell you something. Follow me" Nicki walked in front of him trying to hid her nerves. She led him to the living room and took a seat on the two-seater sofa, patting the empty space next to her. "I'm not going to bite, sit down"

She got herself comfortable by tucking her left leg under her right and resting her hands on her knees. "When I tell you this, you have to promise not to be mad at me. Promise?"

"Promise"

"Okay so you know Safaree right?"

"Yeah, he's your best friend. The one that always with you"

"Ah you see the thing is that, erm he's not just my bestfriend... He's my fiancè" She had mentally prepared herself for how the conversation was going to go; her telling him, him storming out and distance growing between them.

"Wow. You're engaged?"

"Yeah. And I've been meaning to tell you since you told me that you liked me, but I didn't want to hurt your feelings so I thought if I waited you would have figured it out for yourself and it would all be fine which was a bad idea. I'm sorry I didn't tell you from the beginning"

"I understand, I'm just confused and shocked but it'll go away"

"Are you sure you're not mad?"

"Positive"

"I'm so relieved. I hope that it doesn't mess up our friendship because you're really special to me and I don't want to lose you"

"I'm not going anywhere but I better get going, Wayne wants to be in the studio early to record this song"

"Oh, well see you soon?"

"Of course" Nicki walked him to the door and rest her head on the door, watching him walk to his car and drive off.

She slowly closed the door and turned around to see Safaree coming out of the kitchen with a glass of water in his hand. "How did it go?"

"Surprisingly well. I don't want to talk about it but I do want to cuddle so let's go to bed" Nicki grabbed his free hand and pulled him with her up the stairs. 

Thanksgiving 2010

"This is my moment, I just feel so alive, alive, alive" Nicki danced around to the track while singing then heard the crowd scream when Drake came bouncing from the side of the stage. 

"When I tell them hoes bow, bow, bow to me..." She didn't what it was but every time they performed together she couldn't stop smiling, she wasn't sure if it was him in general or the crowd's reaction to him being there and them being together.

"...New York City, I motherfucking love y'all" She couldn't help but laugh at his foolishness then he walked past her with his hood up looking all gangster which made her laugh even more. But then he stop and grabbed her cheeks making her heart race a little faster and kissed her on the corner of her mouth, it was close that she wished he had.

"It wasn't on the lips y'all, it wasn't on the lips!" 

New Years Eve 2010

"You're here!" Nicki squealed seeing Drake make his way through the crowd coming towards her.  When he reached her, he instantly pulled her in for a hug. "Why wouldn't I be?"

"I don't know. I'm so happy, you'll make this party less shit"

"You look nice in that hat" She giggled and looked down feeling herself blush.

"Are you kidding me? I look like that Willy Wonka from that movie" 

"Charlie and the chocolate factory"

"That's it" 

He leaned whispering in her ear. "A sexy one"

"Boy you better stop" Nicki turned around and looked around at the crowd. She felt Drake put her arm around her shoulder and she looked down and joined their hands. And that was the start of the roller-coaster. 

July 2014

"Hey Drizzy"

"What up?"

"I've got this song I want you to jump on"

"Aight email it to me and I'll send it back to you"

"Alright, but I haven't seen you in a while. I miss you"

"I miss you too baby girl"

"Well, when you're back in LA, call me so we can spend some time together"

"Sure thing beautiful" Nicki felt a smile creep on her face. "Well I've got to finish this track and this studio session so talk to you later?"

"Course"

-

"I never fucked Nicki cause she got a man but when that's over then I'm first in line and the other day in her Maybach I thought goddamn this is the perfect time" Nicki paused the recording.

"Seriously? You're a fool" Nicki cackled trying to catch her breath. "Total fool"

"... and Nicki if you ever tryna fuck just give me the heads up so I can plan for it"

"That's real real cute boo boo. Thanks for letting me know"

"You know how I do" Drake popped his collar.

"Mmm hmm and so do all the other girls in Canada and America"

"Ouch" Drake clutched his chest acting all dramatic. "I'm not a hoe"

"That's true because you're a manwhore but the girls love it"

"Including you"

"Well I mean, it's hard not to" Her eyes widened realising what she said but he didn't seem to pay it no mind. "I mean, your hypnotising eyes, that sexy little voice of yours, the way you sing, plus you could smooth talk a grandma so"

"You know Miss Minaj, if I wasn't mistaken, I would think you were flirting with me"

"Me? I'm sorry you must be mistaken. I don't flirt, I tease"

"Boy don't I know. You've been teasing me for yearsssss. Giving me them lap dances, singing sexy, rapping super explicit. That lap dance to anaconda had me question my life and existence. I was the man after that, like what. Got me wanting to fuck the shit of you in the nicest way possible"

"Lucky, I'm not available, huh?"

January 2015 

"Drake, you made it" It was a saturday night and Drake had got a text from Meek Mill asking him to come and party. 

"Told you I would. But this club is crazy man, the girls here are fine"

"Amen to that, but I got a girl"

"You back with your baby mama?"

"Oh hell no, that bitch was crazy and still is"

"So who is it?" By the time he asked, they had made their way over to the VIP area where the rest of the crew were.

"Yo, you want a drink?"

"Yeah man"

"I'll be back" Drake spotted a seat in the middle of the sofa, presuming that's where Meek was sat, he took a seat. The conversation beforehand was still going on and Drake was immediately welcomed. He managed to talk to all the people except the woman next to him who seem to be indulged into a conversation with the woman next to her. Drake thought it was rude if he didn't introduce himself so he did.

"Excuse me, I'm Drake" He put his hand out for her to shake.

"Wait, Aubrey?"

"Onika? What are you doing here?"

"Well I was the area and," Meek came back with Drake's drink and handed it to him then swooped seats with woman next to Nicki putting his arm around Nicki's waist which Drake noticed.

"Erm Meek told me to come and chill with him"

"Oh I see"

She really is dating that nigga. 

February 2015 

"So you're here by yourself?" Drake asked.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?"

"Thought you would be with your boyfriend"

"I wouldn't bring him to something like this, I mean c'mon. I just won my first Grammy and you've just won your second. Why don't we celebrate?"

"Fine, but please stay with the soft drinks I can't handle you when you're drunk"

"You can't handle me sober, big boy"

March 2016

From: Onika Maraj

Sent: 13th March 2016 23:17

To: Aubrey Graham 

Subject: (No Subject)

I was going to tell you in person, but I don't think I could. It took a lot of courage for me to tell you this and at least this way I can it all out in one go. Moving on...

It's funny how we've known each other for almost 8 years, so crazy. I remember those times when we were touring and you would comfort me when I was having hard times like that one time where me and Safaree had an argument and I couldn't stop crying and even though I didn't tell you the reason, you were there for me. Don't think there's been a time where you haven't been there for me... Even the times where I've been a complete bitch.

Then you confessed that you were in love with me and I brushed it off. It took me 5 years to see that you were serious. I always thought it was some publicity stunt and that's why I went along with it which was stupid and rude. I dragged you along like you were a dog and I'm sorry. 

I feel like I sort of owe it to you to give you an explanation and tell you that I'm in love with you too. I hid it pretty well. I sort of confessed to loving two people but no one caught on. You probably know the story behind I lied and I hope you understand why I did what I did. I thought if I left it (the whole being in love with me thing) long enough you would move on and everything would be okay. Once you fell out of love with me, I would fall out of love with you - simple right? At times I found myself being jealous of you being with other girls and I always asked myself why, I'm happy aren't I?

When me and you know who were over, I wanted to run to you and start something but I couldn't. Then Meek came along and I decided to give him a try. Thinking that just maybe he could take my mind away from loving you and every other problem I had. The whole rebound thing was a shit move and I was too blind to see it because I obviously wasn't over my last relationship and was trying to make my ex jealous. I mean 11 years is a really long time and no one gets over that as fast I wanted to make out I did.

That barely lasted a year so it wasn't meant to be. And before you say I told you so, I already knew. With all that being said, I'm not trying to rush into another relationship because I'm not completely healed but all I'm saying is be patient and please don't fall in love with someone new before we are something.